So.

I am currently entered in a scholarship for christian athletes. If I am selected as a finalist, I have to complete a phone interview. If I am selected after that, I have to do a press release. Wish me luck! It's a great way to get my name out there for colleges to see. I have entered three more scholarships besides that. They're pretty much money in my pocket considering, but oh well. Who doesn't like more money?

We started softball last Friday, I hit two out! :) I'm starting this early this year. Who cares? I love softball! It's my life. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have it. So far this semester everything is going great. Besides the fact that I got told if I don't start showing up the whole day-they'll take away ball. But I'm showing up, so that's not a problem anymore. Dad had to stay in the hospital pretty much all weekend. I was there till six in the morning. I was so tired I fell asleep on the floor. He's home now. Doing the same things he's always done. So, I guess he's okay now. For now. He has to go see a doctor tomorrow. I don't know which one. Then the cancer doctor Wednesday. Hmm. That's not good. I wish I knew more about what's going on, but you know they keep me out of the loop. So I just pray everything will be okay. My jaw hasn't gotten much better, but it's gotten worse. I can't even open it all the way now, even if I pop it out. Oh boy.

Remember?

Remember how I said that I wouldn’t like homecoming? I was wrong. It was a blast. I still hated the dress, but you know… I only had to wear it for a few minutes. Then I changed right into my jeans! The dance was the best part. Mason and I had this weird dance that we did randomly to rap songs. Hahaha. Mark was mad cause I didn’t wanna slow dance, but eh he got over it. I didn’t get home till about one. He didn’t get home 1 thirtyish. Then he woke me up at 7 to get ready for his local show. I was exhausted and my legs were sooooooo sore. Probably from lifting weights Thursday and then dancing all night Friday. So I could barely walk. Literally I was limping all over the place. My jaw was killing me, I had a migraine, and I was sore. Such a lovely combination. I was walking around like “don’t touch me”. Just saying. It’s not anti-social when you literally feel like shit and not being around people. Oh boy I will be sleeping like a log tonight! I almost forgot about an English assignment for college, but I got it turned in last minute in just enough time that now I can sleep… THANK GOD!

Hmm.

I have homecoming tomorrow night. Oh boy! Not. I just don't care about it. If I didn't have to walk out there, I wouldn't even go. It's just not one of those things I care about. Besides that, I don't want to wear a dress. Dresses suck! Oh well. Better than nothing, I suppose. ;)

Scared ****less.

I'm terrified. I have to go to the doctor tomorrow to find out what's going on with my jaw. It's been popping and everything for awhile now, but recently it's been worse. I can't open my mouth all the way and it hurts when I open it. It's awful. It's so hard to eat. I'm terrified that if I have to go to the doctor about it they may want to break it to fix it. I'm so scared about it.

Ridiculous

This is completely ridiculous. Someone from the school called my mom complaining about how I dress. They said I look like a bum all the time and all that crap. I do not. I look like every senior in the high school. Just ridiculous.

Really?

Looks like I'm NOT going to tour OBU tomorrow. Just stay home and waste my life away? I guess so.

Way too young!

I am way too young to feel this old! I couldn't sleep because of knee pain, hip pain, and that lovely migraine. (the rhyming there wasn't intentional, but heh.) I am way too young to have that much pain. The problems of being an athlete I guess. Killing your body before you're 20 or so. Oh well.

My SIM card is IN. :)

Of Course.

Of course, I'm up this late. Does it surprise you? It shouldn't. But I am skyping mark right now. I'm glad I have this, while he's gone to bitter cold Wyoming. That's stupid. Stupid cold. Oh well, it's his thing. I understand that he went to go see his family. But you know. At least there's skype. Now, I'm sitting at aunt christys skyping mark, downloading music, and stalking the web.

Yep, I'm a geek.