Graduation

Graduation is tomorrow. I'm super stressed with everything going on. I still have to pack for Minnesota and I have to wash some clothes. Tomorrow I have to practice, get my hair done, get dressed up, be at the school at six, graduate at 7, party afterwards (with the family of course), convince Johnnie's dad to let him go, and finally at midnight I will be 18! But it doesn't stop there, because on that day I have to and be on the road on my 18th birthday. So yeah.. I'm busy.

Okay, I know I know.

I know I haven't posted in awhile. I know I promised that I would. But honestly, I've been soooo busy. I have had to write essays for college, and apparently my teacher hates them. So whatever. I have a new boyfriend who is a straight up country boy. He likes hunting, riding horses, only wears boots, and he pretty much only listens to country music. But he is the sweetest guy, EVER! He understands when I'm upset or why I'm upset, and he just understands. I don't know how to explain it.

Mark was getting annoying again, just like last time. It's over for good with him. Johnnie is ten times better than Mark. Sure, I was the idiot who started dating Mark again. I realize the mistake. Will NOT happen again.

Softball is going fantasticly! I'm aware of the word not being real, I do not care. I have six homers already, three more and I break the record again. We are number four, and possibly moving up in rankings. Red Oak can be beat this year. Oh, and it's on. We have three losses, two of which to Tupelo. I haaaaattttteeeee them. They're so freaking rude.

I have thirty days of school left. Am I ready for it? Yes and No. Yes, I'm ready for summer and to be out of high school and to be 18. No, I'm not ready to be completely on my own, not ready for college, and not ready for softball to be over.

Okay..

So I am officially done with college for the week, both of my classes! I just finished all of my assignments, so I pretty much have the week off. Yeah buddy. I'm okay with that! I bought my prom dress, now all I gotta do is order the shoes. I've been tanning so I should be tan by then. Oh and did I mention I got it on sale for 20 bucks? Yeah, that's right. :) I got a really cute shirt for 8 bucks and can't wait to wear it. Tomorrow is our Senior Night so, I have to dress up. I'm okay with that. As long as it doesn't have to be a dress, I am good. I really don't want to go, but you know I kind've have to. Oh well, wish me luck!

So.

I am currently entered in a scholarship for christian athletes. If I am selected as a finalist, I have to complete a phone interview. If I am selected after that, I have to do a press release. Wish me luck! It's a great way to get my name out there for colleges to see. I have entered three more scholarships besides that. They're pretty much money in my pocket considering, but oh well. Who doesn't like more money?

We started softball last Friday, I hit two out! :) I'm starting this early this year. Who cares? I love softball! It's my life. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have it. So far this semester everything is going great. Besides the fact that I got told if I don't start showing up the whole day-they'll take away ball. But I'm showing up, so that's not a problem anymore. Dad had to stay in the hospital pretty much all weekend. I was there till six in the morning. I was so tired I fell asleep on the floor. He's home now. Doing the same things he's always done. So, I guess he's okay now. For now. He has to go see a doctor tomorrow. I don't know which one. Then the cancer doctor Wednesday. Hmm. That's not good. I wish I knew more about what's going on, but you know they keep me out of the loop. So I just pray everything will be okay. My jaw hasn't gotten much better, but it's gotten worse. I can't even open it all the way now, even if I pop it out. Oh boy.

Remember?

Remember how I said that I wouldn’t like homecoming? I was wrong. It was a blast. I still hated the dress, but you know… I only had to wear it for a few minutes. Then I changed right into my jeans! The dance was the best part. Mason and I had this weird dance that we did randomly to rap songs. Hahaha. Mark was mad cause I didn’t wanna slow dance, but eh he got over it. I didn’t get home till about one. He didn’t get home 1 thirtyish. Then he woke me up at 7 to get ready for his local show. I was exhausted and my legs were sooooooo sore. Probably from lifting weights Thursday and then dancing all night Friday. So I could barely walk. Literally I was limping all over the place. My jaw was killing me, I had a migraine, and I was sore. Such a lovely combination. I was walking around like “don’t touch me”. Just saying. It’s not anti-social when you literally feel like shit and not being around people. Oh boy I will be sleeping like a log tonight! I almost forgot about an English assignment for college, but I got it turned in last minute in just enough time that now I can sleep… THANK GOD!

Hmm.

I have homecoming tomorrow night. Oh boy! Not. I just don't care about it. If I didn't have to walk out there, I wouldn't even go. It's just not one of those things I care about. Besides that, I don't want to wear a dress. Dresses suck! Oh well. Better than nothing, I suppose. ;)

Scared ****less.

I'm terrified. I have to go to the doctor tomorrow to find out what's going on with my jaw. It's been popping and everything for awhile now, but recently it's been worse. I can't open my mouth all the way and it hurts when I open it. It's awful. It's so hard to eat. I'm terrified that if I have to go to the doctor about it they may want to break it to fix it. I'm so scared about it.